Ive turned on the faucet slowly, and out came the water.

ME, apeun and aste had just finished with our thesis, DAMN! At last some time to rest.

I'm on the process of healing when I broke with *A***. im free at last.

Why can't *A*** stop and face it. It's over!

THis february, ive been enjoying this game, Gunbound, and starting to be addicted with this stuff, and it's sucking all my money out of my piggy bank.

February-I'm sitting on Hijie's arm chair. Whoa! I've never seen a creature so cute as that! I still haven't met that creature, so I named it "Grub". Grub is cute, friendly, awesome smile, and a nice forehead.

Hehehe, I started to notice this signs, my defense mechanisms.
I started to come early to school and study my lessons.
I started to think of the "grub" lately.
I wanted to see "grub" everyday.
And I found out that i'm doing good at school, by reasons that, I got higher scores on quizzes and exams, I do our projects and stuff. We're exempted on our final exam in Health Economics.

"Grub" is helping me a lot. I'm inspired.
i'm starting to like grub, i wanted to meet and talk to grub.

I have a new best friend, Hijie's nice and cool.
She helped me meet grub.

So grub and I started txting each other. Grub didn't mind, and manage to call me when time and chance permits.

I'm a snob. I don't have the guts to talk to grub personally. I'm ashamed of myself.
time is running out, I have no more time till graduation day.

I want to talk to grub, it comforts me...

Im speechless,
I don't know what to say,
I don't know where to start.
My thoughts are bothering me,
a lot of emotions,
it's bugging me!

I like the feeling when i think of this...
but not when thinking it would be over.
Am I on love? But my heart doesn't say.
My mind keep thinking of that Hit Creature,
as to what I call it.
I don't know what to do.
There isn't enough time.
Im leaving
It will stay.
And the feelings I hope should be over.

We've connected, and the creature knew,
What a waste of time.
Im doing nothing, wating for nothing.
Im hopeless.

I want to stop, but I can't.
I want to run, but it wouldn't change it.
I so lonely.
I want to talk to you.
I want to be with you.

But the truth is, we can't.

A lot of things are popping out of my mind, and i feel im getting lost.